For my good

If you don't want to hear the ramblings of a lonely, sappy girl, move on.

Sometimes I really miss my best friend.

Yes, I have a lot of those. 

And right now I do miss all of them.

But the one that really weighs me down is Mike.

I never want to write about this on my blog because everyone else will see it 

then I turn in to that girl. 

The one everyone tells stories about,

"Oh his girlfriend would send letters that had 6 lbs of perfume on them and put a million "I love my Missionary" stickers on there because writing it a gazillion times wasn't enough..."

You've all heard them.

I have too.

(Sidenote: I do NOT do that.) 

I don't mean to be that girl.

I am thrilled he's on his mission and how much he has grown.

Missions are amazing things and should never be thought of differently.

But losing your best friend to one makes it sometimes hard to remember that.

Sometimes you just let yourself think that if it weren't for a mission he would be here,

to hang out with you on a Saturday night,

to tell you that as much as you want to watch P.S. I Love You, you shouldn't because it is going to make you miss him that much more,

to paint your nails on your right hand so it doesn't get all over the place,

to make jokes at your expense- just so people know you are with him,

to just sit with you so you don't realize that you are the most boring thing on the planet, right below sloths and beige.

But then, I wouldn't have the letters that I will cherish forever, no matter what.

Because I got to watch my best friend become an adult,

to draw closer to the Lord and rely on Him for his every need.

I wouldn't have the countdown on my phone that excitedly will say 499 Days tomorrow.

The 400's you guys.

That means there are just over 100 more days until it's been a year. 

I can't believe that.

So yes, it is going by fast. 

I feel like it was just a month ago that he was leaving.

How far I've come from that day.

How far he's come from that day.

Again, I wouldn't change my circumstances because "all things shall be thee experience and shall be for thy good." (Doctrine and Covenants 122:7)

I just had to get it off my chest, and writing it in my journal or something just didn't seem to do it's job. 

I miss my best friend. 

That's it. 

But I am blessed. 

Truly.

For that I am grateful.