Hallo Wein

So I  may have spoken too soon on my Top Ten. I ended up not having to work. Which was good. But I didn't get paid either. So this job thing isn't really helping me.

It's a dang good thing I did not go to the Howl because that night I got sick, again. I had a raging fever and of course the chills. So I just went to bed fairly early.

 Sunday I wake up with the same fever and chills with an added sore throat. I panic because I've already had strep 4 times this year so one more time and it's bye bye tonsils.

Then this morning I wake up with a much lower fever but a raging sore throat. Literally I can't even swallow my own spit. Well I probably could but I refuse because it makes me cringe in pain. So I'm pretty sure I'll be making an appointment to the Health and Wellness Clinic in Logan and getting yet another strep test done. Who wants to make me gag this time? 

So I didn't go to school today, for obvious reasons. But the really big bummer is that it's Halloween and I don't even feel like dressing up. I mean I want to and I want to wear the big 80's dress and get my Pink lipstick on with my huge hair but I have no energy to do that. So my last Halloween as a kid and I probably won't even participate. Boo. Punny, I know.

So from now on, I'm not doing a Top Ten until the very end of the week. Otherwise it will get ruined. 

Top Ten

This has been such a good week. Some good things have happened. I liked this week. 

1. Mike got back from NYC. That was good. 

2. I understood my Biology Class for the first time. And I went to SI. I knew the answers. Weird.

3. I learned easier ways to take notes. On my laptop. On the slides. Hmm... who would have thought? 

4. I get to write a paper on my intended major. It's actually helping me make a decision. School does help in the real world. 

5. I didn't go to school on thursday. Because I don't have to. 

6. Jenna and I Feng-shuied our room. It looks so nice and there is so much more room. I love it so much. I actually want to spend time in it. It feels like home. And I can watch Jenna while she sleeps. I'm saying yes to that.

7. Mike made me the most fantastic blanket in the entire world. It's Princess' on the front. Cinderella, Belle, Aurora, and Tiana. Because he told me I was his Princess. Who's the cutest? He is. Then the back is his super soft blue that feels like a baby blanket. It is life changing. I can't put it down. It is perfect. I slept with it last night and for the first time in more then a month I didn't wake up because I was cold. Yeah. It is the greatest. Everyone should be jealous of it. 

8. I GET to work today. I say GET because I'm reminding myself I'm lucky to have a job. I'm babysiting from 130 until 1030. Bummer. But I get paid today. That helps. What do I do with a 5 year old and a 15 month old for that long? No idea.

9. It's the weekend! I'm excited to sleep in and have no need to get up tomorrow. And to not go to the HOWL. I'm going to enjoy a fully clothed, warm, night not getting grinded on. I feel like that is a good choice. 

10. For Halloween, I'm wearing the worlds coolest dress. Red. Total 80's. Huge bows. I can hardly wait. Come back later for pictures. 

Those are my top ten from my week. Pretty good huh? 

This is my Heart. This is my Story to Tell.

So Jenna and I just returned from dinner. Some good old Wendy's. College is good. On the way we listened to this awesome song "Every Heart" by Sara Haze. While I was singing along, listening to the words I decided I wanted to do a blog post about my story according to the lyrics. It'll make sense. Hopefully.

A summer sunburnTwo, maybe three summers ago, I went to Bear Lake with my family and decided to lay out. Without sunscreen. For about 6 hours. Not a good idea. I was fried. I blistered and peeled everywhere. It didn't help that I returned to Bear Lake about 3 days later with my best friends at the time. I have new freckles on my shoulder from this and one day probably skin cancer.                                                         
The smile you earnedThis one is self explanatory I guess. Except someone told me once I had 5 different smiles depending on what I was doing. I don't remember the categories though. I'll have to ask him before he leaves on his mission.

 Stumbles and fallsThe only one I can think of is when I crashed my vespa and got gnarly burns and scratches and still have scars on my hip, elbow, and a huge one on my foot.

The lessons you’ve learnedOh man. The things I've learned. I don't know how to pick this. But I'm thankful for my Education and the chance to go to college and learn lots of new things. And I'm thankful for all the people that have taught me lessons in my life. Teachers, Family, Friends, Neighbors, Church Leaders, everyone.

Choices you’ve madeTo attend Utah State. To sing. To teach myself piano. To love pink. To have big dreams. To be scared of adventures. To hate Chinese food. To be terrified of earthquakes. To dress up. To be a dork. To love little kids. To be in Mom mode. To all the people who've helped me make these choices. 

Your first heartbreakThis one. Hmm.. I'm not sure that I've ever really had a "heartbreak" Yeah, I've been upset about things, Sad when relationships ended and broken when people died but I don't know that its the same. I'll keep you posted on this though. 
                                                                 Getting too old for the batman cape, Simpler times, wanting to flyOh I loved being little! I love little kids. Seriously. Being little was the best ever. Everything was easy and there were no problems, no stress. It was so great.

Mesmerized by Christmas lightsLike most, my favorite memories are around Christmas. We reenact the Nativity fully equipped with costumes, donkeys and dolls every year. Cinnamon and the Grandma Great smoothie. The music. The "Santa present" with our names written on them in Mom's handwriting. Pajamas on the eve. Luminaries on Grandpa's street. The Grinch. And of course the hideous pictures of you on Christmas morning that will haunt you forever.                                                           
A starburst rush, your first real crushBryson Morrow. He was perfect. I was sure I'd marry him. We played kissing tag. He told me he liked my bangs. I thought I was in love with him. I still see his yellow house on 90th in West Jordan and I wonder if he remembers me.                                                                 You’re bit by a dog, a yellow school busI wasn't ever bit by a dog. They loved me too much. But I did grow up with a lot of different dogs. Lucky, Shadow, Ernie, Ozzy, and Fred. I'm a dog lover. But that school bus. I remember waiting at the bus stop around the corner from my house and missing my yellow baby blanket. The bus makes me think of early Elementary School.                                                            Sweet sixteenOh man. I had such a dramatic Sweet sixteen. I had a party in my basement and we watched Never Back Down then Dani and Talmage fought. As my mom would say, "it was me and 30 of my closest friends" but really. That was back when I had friends. Then my dad came down at 11 and yelled at everyone to get out that it was passed my curfew. I was mortified and cried for the first time in about 8 years.                                                         that concert you missedAaron Carter. Aaron. Oh Aaron. Nuff said.
                                                     
Your best friend I had a lot of best friends growing up since I moved all the time. My cousin Jane, Josilyn and Mckay, Kennedy and Alex, Brooke and Abby, Amy Williams, and of course Jenna and Lynds.                                                and your first kissGood times. Two Words Nate Stoven. Rape Kissed. I hated it. Well I loved it then but now I hate it. I like to count it as Jake Olsen, in the cave, after we through glow sticks around, then he hit his head on the ceiling. Love that kid.                                                      
Believing in Santa ClauseThis didn't last very long since my sister found out the truth and she just had to share with me. I actually don't remember a time I did believe. Sad day.                                                             A letter you wrote, A promise you brokeThe only letters I wrote were in Jr. High when it was awesome to write notes and fold them all fancy and write in the cutest handwriting. And when Jenna spelled my name wrong every time. A promise? I can't think of anything big. The biggest would be all those weekends I didn't want to hang out with someone even though I told them I would. Sorry guys. I was full of myself.                                                        

Never forget the hearts that shaped youMy family. My sister more than any. My friends. Jenna. Lynds. Mike. Jake. Peter. Jenna C. Ellen. Taylor. Sarah. Brand. Sariah. Janessa. My teachers. Smith-by far. Sharron Rolfe. Hadfield.                                              The love of your lifeMan, the amount I wish I could tell you. I really do. If I had one wish, I'd want to know who this would be. I can tell you that our wedding will be off the chain, thanks to Pintrest and my obsession with Weddings.                                                                 
The fourth of JulyI never realized how much I love the 4th of July until this year. The Fireworks, Sparklers, Snow Cones, Red White and Blue, I love it. It helped that this year I went to Stadium of Fire and a Bee's game.                                                          The times that you laughed so hard you criedOh my gosh. This is the story of my life. I ALWAYS do this. I love it too. Who doesn't want to laugh hysterically and love it?                                                   The first day of balletDear Mom, I never thanked you for not doing this to me. I'm a terrible dancer and ballet is boring. Thank you. Love, me.                                                       Hardships you’ve facedMy grandma dying. Moving so much. My dad losing his job my Sophomore year. My Grandpa dying. We've all had them. We all learned from them.                                               
It’s the love you lost, the love you made, Makes us who we are todaySo who am I? Lover of kids, pink and life. Hater of Chinese food, Earthquakes and "Food Chompers." Freshman in college. High School Graduate. Obsessed with Weddings and Love. Avid Facebooker, Tweeter, Blogger and Pinner. Love my friends with all my heart. My family is incredible-I'd be lost without them. and incredibly blessed.

Yes.

While blog stalking, I came upon this super cute idea. This cute mom writes a list of all the things she said yes to this week. So I decided I'm going to do this and maybe it will help me do cool stuff and be more optimistic? So Tuesdays are YES days. From here on out.

This week: I'm saying YES to:

• Going to class, ready to learn new things. I'm going to take advantage of my Education.
• Going to SI so I can stop doing bad on my tests.     
• Eating a spoonful of Cookie Dough for me. Just some me time.
• Remembering the good times-letting go of the past.
• Thinking of what is important to me-not everyone around me.
• Doing what I want to do.
• Being positive and open to new things.
• Dressing up as Prom Royalty for Halloween. I hope my Prom dress still fits.

• Prioritizing and actually doing the right things
• Remembering the big picture-not just in the moment things.
• Crafting. I'm going to make my crayon canvas and Be.you.tiful picture.
• Watching out for those around me. I'll help them-I have no life. 
• Getting my homework done before I start my night. Being productive.
• Me and Britt are saying yes to saying yes. And Brie. 
• Taking a stand. What do I believe in?
• Saying goodbye to the next, best Missionary the church is about to have. I'll miss you Jaron.
• Watching crappy movies for entertainment. 
• Working out. Exercise here I come.
• Eating balanced meals. fruits and veggies
• Jenna and I talking in the "I would say yes to.." format.
• Doing my laundry and washing my shoes. They stink.

So that's it, my lists is stopping there. Hopefully I can accomplish these things this week. I'll keep you posted. Literally.

I have a feeling next weeks won't be as long.

Logan Leaves.

I've never loved Fall very much until this year. And it's because Logan has the prettiest colored leaves ever! They are everywhere and so bright. I love driving around and just looking at them.

 So on Sunday, since we had nothing else to do my friends and I just drove up in the canyon. We took our snacks, a blanket and some good music and for about an hour we just drove up and down the canyon.

 We looked at all the colors and blasting music. And naturally singing our lungs out. Our Broadway hits were the best. I'd have to say that Jenna and I make a good Wicked duet. And Rent. They were pretty good. Our friends were jealous.

But it was so fun just to do nothing and sing so loud and it didn't matter. I'm sure Tanner loved having that in his ears the whole time. :)

Tanner was a caged animal, sitting in the back. He was screaming at everyone and being a rag doll. At this point he really didn't like the song. And wasn't going to let us listen to it.

FALL and BREAK your face.

This weekend was a good time. Here's what happened. It was fall break!! Woot. I got a whole two days off of school. big whoop. Thursday, Jenna's family came up. Her Mom, sister and cute niece and nephew- Crew and Jada. They are the cutest things in the whole world. We went to lunch and the store and then to the pumpkin walk.
Whats a pumpkin walk? well it is a bunch of different scenes of anything like Angry birds, Despicable Me, Winnie the Pooh,  Tangled, all made out of pumpkins! It was so cute. It was a lot of fun to take the little kids with us and see them get so excited about familiar faces. We finished the day by watching True Grit. Super Lame. Don't watch it. I gave up at midnight and went to bed. Good thing too because at about 3 am I got sick.
So many of you know that I'm Master- Puka. I throw up all the time. It's not a new thing to me and if I ever feel like I'm going to throw up, I will. Well 3 am friday morning, the throw up began. Even though I throw up a lot, I had never seen this much throw up. It was everywhere. And it was splashing on me and all over the bathroom. Fun huh? Way attractive. This went on an on until about 7 in the morning- non stop. I slept in the hall outside my bathroom so I wouldn't wake up Jenna while I ran in the dark making lost of noise. That was fun.
In a total of 6 hours that day, I threw up 13 times.
After a while my stomach ran out of food to throw up since I hadn't eaten and what I had eaten the day before had already been thrown up. So then it was just a dry heave. The worst kind.
However, this sickness allowed me to get out of work for the day and go with my family to Wolf Creek a day early!
Being sick as a dog, I sat on the couch of condo 212 all day Friday. I watched Phineas and Ferb, Friends, Victorious, while dozing in and out of sleep since I got about 2 hours the night before. My family was really glad I came, I'm sure.
The next day I felt better, I ate a little and I even showered and got off the couch. We relaxed for the morning then headed out to unleash my hyper 9 year old brother who just wanted to play soccer and football.
We went to the park for a while and watched my super energetic little brothers play all kinds of sports. Jackson in particular was very serious about this though. He was diving to block goals and drop kicking the ball all the way down the field. He had to show off for his awesome sisters.
Then, somehow they convinced Mal and I to join them in a two on two soccer game.
Team Chimera      vs.                                  Team Tumnus
                                         
Team Tumnas didn't come come up with that name until the last seconds of the game though. Boo
Naturally Team Chimera won. 3 to 1. It's because we it's a ferocious mystical beast.  I even scored a goal!! That's right people. I'm somewhat athletic. Kind of.
Then we were all feeling competitive so naturally I raced my youngest brother to the car. I got about a 3 second head start and barely won. Then I felt really sick. Not a good idea.

Anyway then we hung out at our condo, my mom made yummy tacos for dinner. I've missed meals like that. Then that night my whole family went and played a good game of Racquetball. We LOVE this game. It's so spastic. Who honestly locks people in a room with a racquet, rubber ball, and goggles and says go!? No one. It is or spastic people. Perfect for my family. We had a great time. The 5 of us hit 3 balls around in the court for a while then Mal and I went to another court and attempted to hit the ball around. We are not very coordinated. At all. I hit Mal with the ball so hard. Like so hard. She got a welt which later turned into a huge bump. I'm strong. It's fine. :)

Jack looks like a demon. NBD.

Then to finish off the night, We all got in the hot tub. But since I was delirious packing for the trip, I didn't bring a swim suit. So I got in with my racquetball clothes on. Super cute. 
Walking back was freezing. I thought I was going to be an icicle by the time I got inside.
But it was so nice to see my family and have a relaxing weekend with nothing to do. :)

Halloweenies

Well, it's October and almost Halloween. So Jenna has been itching for scary movies every night. So, we've watched a lot. Well a lot for me who doesn't really enjoy scary movies at all. I get way too freaked out. However, I've been a big girl lately and i'd say I've done pretty well considering I used to hide under my blanket the whole time.

That is my Satan face. Pretty good huh?

The first one we watched was Scream with Mike and Kyle. We started this one at like 1130 and I was already tired. Needless to say, I slept through the bulk of it. I saw the beginning and it was pretty scary. The girl is freaking hanging in a tree after she's been knifed to death. I got scared. And apparently I was squeezing Mikes hand really hard. I had no idea. But hey, it's better then just screaming every two seconds.


Next was Disturbia. I absolutely LOVE this movie! Yes people this is one of my top 10 favorites I'd say. And it's scary. Yeah. I like that this one isn't just like crap your pants scary the whole time. The end is, yes. And that is how it should be. I want to be able to enjoy the movie without just begging for it to end sometime soon. This one does a great job with that. I actually want to watch it. Love it. And Shia Lebouf is super sexy the whole movie. woof.


Then we watched Signs. That movie is so stupid. Like so stupid. I slept through a little of this too. (Mono is back? yeah.) It was a good idea but those alien things are so stupid. They are just gross. They aren't even scary. At all. And it just breaks my heart that both dogs have to die. Come on. Let one of them live! And the kid with asthma is an awful actor. It doesn't happen that way. I would know. Whatever. And I am never scared in this movie. Ever. So really it's just awful.


Last but not least (so far) was Insidious. Yeah. We watched this last night. It is officially awarded the Weirdest movie ever made! This beat out I am Number 4 and Stardust. Yeah. That's impressive. Yeah. I was scared and it was pretty jumpy and it did it's job but seriously. I think I laughed more through it then I was scared. It didn't help that Jaron was being way funny through it. "I don't like that red faced guy" "Those girls are scary." "Did he have hooves? And they just had to show those? Couldn't they have just left those out?" It was just messed up. No doubt the people making this got way bored at the end of it. I don't want to ruin it for any of you that want to watch it. Watch it. It's definitely one you have to see but it's going to be different then you expect. Guaranteed. This movie includes: Red fire faced guy, Old wrinkly grandmas in veil, Puppeteers, the underworld, fog and gliding men into the underworld, the ghost busters, an elephant mask that calls the underworld, and so much more. You are just in for a treat if you watch it. That's the point.


And I carved a pumpkin with a mustache on it. Thats it.Way cool. I love it. Happy Hauntings.

Pinned-Ya Again.

i. love.this.

This just needs to be my motto for life. I get too embarrassed too easily to try and impress everyone. 

This is just the cutest thing. 

Pintrest is the cutest thing. If you don' t have one. Think about it because it will make you feel crafty, creative, and loved and all you have to do is sit at your computer. 

So, college students, it's perfect for you. 

They have so many of these cute quote things. except this one was definitely one of my top 5 favorites.

Here are some other funny ones that Jenna and I died laughing at.

We enjoyed all of these. 

So this is me on a Tuesday night even though it feels like Friday. I'm done with my classes this week and am really excited. I took about a 3 hour nap today. I'm feeling like my mono is returning. boo. 

But I'm sitting here waiting for FH'zookie-scary movie night to start while watching Tanner take pictures of himself on iPhoto. way funny. He looks so stupid. so stupid.

He's a dork. Anyway.

  Get a Pintrest. Change your life. Procrastinate everything.

Relief

College was officially tough this week. And it's only Tuesday. Everyone and their dog decided to have a test this week since it's fall break this weekend. Really we just get a day off so whatever. Either way it's a long weekend.
 Anyways, I had two tests today. Two. Biology and History. History is whatever. His tests are pretty easy-even though I have yet to get better than a C- on them. Either way, they are 15 questions and the last one is always a given. Today's was:

My instructor is smarter than: (Note: You will get this right ONLY if you answer "a")

a. the average bear   b. a rock   c. Lady Gaga   d. some,but not all, five year olds.

I can not tell you how bad I wanted to mark Lady Gaga but decided it wasn't worth missing that point. So I marked a. Naturally.

Biology on the other hand is tough. And I mean really tough. For the first time in my life I actually studied and prepared well for this test. Yeah, I've studied before but it was just a quick look through my notes, read them over and over again even though your mind is wandering on who knows what. Yesterday I actually studied. Jenna and I went to SI, I payed attention on our homework assignment, memorized some definitions, and the parts of  flower used for reproduction. Yeah. I know what those are now because I'm definitely going to need to know those. NOT.

The point is, I feel pretty good about those tests. Knock on wood. But we find out today how I really did so here's to hoping.

On a side note, I wore sweats and a t-shirt with my hair in an Asian bun on the top of my head to school today.

Yes people, that's right. I was not high maintenance for once in my life. And I didn't care. I didn't feel stupid or ugly either. I just embraced it and moved on. Except now I feel stupid for posting that. I'm leaving it there anyway. like it or leave.
I think it may have something to do with this girl Lisel in my ward. It was their rooms turn to introduce themselves at ward prayer on Sunday and they all wore buns on the top of their head then she explains,
"We all wore our hair like this cuz they thought it was funny. I don't know why it's funny. I think it's cute."
She seriously was the funniest girl ever and I'm obsessed with her. I'll be her friend. That is for sure.
Anyways, I'm too lazy to do the color thing and what not so this is going to be a boring one. But it really is boring anyway so congrats if you made it through.