GC Goal

This year I'm actually going to watch all 4 sessions.  (I'll catch up on what I missed this morning)
I'm going to take notes and get things out of it.
I'm going to hear the words that while they may be said to the whole world, are just for me.
I'm going to hear my favorite talks.
I'm going to hear many profound quotes, one that will give me what I needed.
I'm going to set news Gospel goals according to what is stressed this time, like finish the BOM for once.
I'm going to enjoy every second of what is said.
I'm going to be grateful for the chance I have to listen to these amazing church leaders.
I'm going to also be grateful that I can do it in my pajamas.
I'm going to listen to the Spirit and follow his council.
I'm going to remember my Grandpa when they announce his name as a deceased General Authority.
I'm going to love the music sung by the TAB choir and any one else that sings. (MTC choir? YW choir? Childrens chorus?)
I'm going to dream about a day that I could be up there.
I'm going to listen, enjoy and feel the spirit.

You want to do the same? Well good news, you can. Just go here. or here.
You won't regret it. I promise.
                                  

F word

Failure. Guys, I'm failing at school. This is a new concept for me and I don't like it. I've always gotten by in school pretty easily getting A's and B's and I was more than happy with that. But College. Something happened. I think it may be my lack of motivation and my new found love for freedom. Aka no curfew. Aka No sleep.
Last semester, I signed up for classes not really thinking about it so I took a lot of classes that I didn't care about. In fact, I didn't care about any of them. That is also when I discovered that you didn't have to go to school and no body cared. So that no sleep thing seemed to not be a problem. Then the last two weeks of the semester came and I freaked out. I had D's in 2 of my classes and the only way to bump up those grades? The final. To make matters worse, I had failed basically every test I had previously taken. So I turned into a study bug and by some miracle I got C's and got credit and passed all my classes. However, that was the first time I'd received lower than a B. Crap.

Anyway, So this semester, I took classes that I would enjoy or could possibly learn to enjoy but I'm slowly getting back into this failing rut.

I forgot to take the last two quizzes in my Music class and there is no way to make that up.
I do not do well when I'm not given a due date or a reminder. I'm fine if it is announced but when they are not, they I don't think about it. So crap. I missed out on 47 easy points.

I just took a Math test and understood maybe 30% of it. Seriously. I know I'm awful at math. Like, the worst but most of the time I can remember things for a test. That was not the case. I am screwed. I can't wait for the semester to be over so I can have a Math break.

Because I am not doing well in my Music class I had to stay in Logan for the weekend to go to a Performance to try and get as many points as possible. Now this isn't really an awful thing but I really am sick of having no personal space and roommates that never stop. Now not all of them do that and I love my roommates to death but there are a few that I cannot handle for the entire weekend, but I have to. Let's hope we both live...

So anyway, college is hard and I am not good at studying and really am just ready for a break. That is all.

4. more. weeks.....

                         

Can I just say...

I hate when people talk during a movie. And I mean really talk the entire time through your sappy chick flick that you turned on when no one was home because you wanted to watch it, alone.

I hate when people eat. I really do. I understand it is a necessity and everyone eats. Including me. But when one slurps down 4 bowls of cereal, crackers, cheese and peanut butter in a matter of an hour. I get very, very annoyed.

To go along with that, I hate the sounds people make while eating. I have yet to figure out why people insist on shoveling in a mammoth sized bite of food into their tiny mouth. It isn't supposed to fit, so stop. Little pointer: If you are having trouble breathing, you have too much in your mouth.

I don't know why I was cursed with such a hatred for food sounds, I'm hoping it will keep me from having to diet just because I am so repulsed by most foods, I don't eat. But please, don't egg this pet peeve on, I've had enough and I'm sure your stomach has too. And don't feel bad if I get annoyed by you while you're eating. There are maybe 2 people that don't bug me and I can only think of one of those people so there is a good chance you bug me when you eat.

When one claims to be so very giving and never think of themselves then turns around and asks you to do something for them that would make you look like Satan if you said no, I question where one learned the definition of "giving" and "selfless." I think you are very mistaken.

When I am sleeping, I am sleeping. This is my time and I don't want to be bothered. I would argue that most people feel the same about this as I do. So yes, I may be sprawled out on the couch leaving only the chair for you to sit, and I understand that is rude. But listen, I never wanted to watch this movie with anyone. So while I sleep, please don't move my legs so you can spoon me. I didn't like waking up to that.

I really am a nice person. I try to say nice things and be nice. For the most part. But sometimes, I get annoyed and am too much a people pleaser to say anything to the problem. So I blog about it.

I am really excited for a change next semester. 4 more weeks...

I'm also not sure about this moving home thing. I hope I can find it in me to still appreciate my parents the way I do when they give me all my rules back. I understand that midnight is not that bad of a curfew but just knowing that I have a curfew puts a damper on my night. That's all. If I promise I will be home at a reasonable hour can I just not have a curfew? Please and thank you.

If you read this whole blog about me complaining. Good for you. I'm sorry it was so negative.

On the plus side, Spring is here. And I'm loving every second of it.