Day 19

Things you want to say to an "ex"

Funny thing is, I only have one ex. So hopefully he never sees this. If you do, ex, and you know who you are, and I'm sure you do, I'm sorry, but I'm sure there are things you want to say to me too, so in that case, leave a comment below. :)

Dating

1. Why on earth did you decide to be another person around me then you normally are? 

2. I agreed to make you my "boyfriend" because I liked you not the Mr. Perfect you were trying to be. 

3. When you kissed me in the cave, it was cute and completely unexpected, that was cute.

4. I'm sorry I made you hit your head on the top of the cave though...

5. After that, things just got awkward.

6. I really don't think I enjoyed kissing you. 

7. Granted that only happened 3 times...

8. Remember that one time that you just kissed me and I really didn't want you to, then you called my best friend the next day to apologize?

9. WHAT THE HECK WAS THAT?!

10. Then when you called my best friend and then my worst enemy to go to the mall with you before your girlfriend aka, me.

11. Then remember when someone ran into you at the mall while you were there with my worst enemy? Aka. Me.

12. Then remember when you cheated on my twice while we were dating which was 3 months. 

13. Then I let you make me feel bad for you and said it was okay?

14. Then how when my worst enemy sabotaged me and showed you texts that said I didn't want to hang out with you that ONE TIME and you found out that I lied to you.

15. Then you decided not to speak to me while we saw a midnight movie that was actually at 330am? 

16. Then the next day you made me come over to have a talk and I felt awful about lying to you because I wanted to have ONE girls night?

17. REMEMBER WHEN YOU CHEATED ON ME? TWICE?!!

18. You had no right to make me feel that bad. 

19. Remember when I avoided you for a week while I was trying to figure out how I wanted to break up with you?

20. Remember when we broke up and Cowboy Casanova became my favorite song to bash boys to. 

21. Thanks for that.

22. Remember when you told me you were going to make my senior year the "worst year ever"

23. Then claimed it was a joke.

24. Newsflash. Senior Year was my favorite year in school.

25. And you were not a part of it. At All. And that was your choice.

Post Break-up

1. What did you think changing schools was going to do?

2. Why did you do it on the 2nd day of school?

3. If you were so upset about breaking up then why did you initiate it and tell me you wanted to?

4. Why would you tell my best friend you "loved me" and not me?

5. Really? That was a stupid move.

6. I really don't think you loved me. You just again, wanted to make me feel bad.

7. Remember when you didn't talk to me for an entire 9 months after changing schools?

8. Remember how I still gave you  a birthday present?!

9. Then remember when I saw you at a choir competition the day my Grandpa died, and was vulnerable and told you we could hang out?

10. Remember how we went to lunch and the park for FOUR hours to talk about our lives since the break up. All because you chose not to care.

11. Remember how we were friends for about a week then I moved up to school?

12. I was so excited for you to get your mission call and even guessed where you were going right?

13. Then I remember crying at your farewell and thinking how proud I was of you.

14. Then I said my goodbyes and was planning on writing you for the whole 2 years.

15. You came home before I could even send my first letter.

16. Then I still didn't see you for another 6 months.

17. Then when I did see you, you said "Hey we should hang out cuz I'm single now."

18. And you definitely knew that my boyfriend was leaving in 3 days.

19. That was a smooth move.

20. Then how we planned to hang out and you ditched me 3 days in a row.

21. I'm done trying to be your friend if you don't care.

22. You broke every promise you made to me

23. And yet somehow I still feel bad for you

24. You are dramatic and I don't even know what to do with that.

25. Oh and remember when I told you I didn't want to be any degree of affection ever? I lied. Because you said that's what you wanted. 

On another note, he really is a nice person. Really. I've known him for 8 years. But he was just definitely not the one for me. And I definitely know that now.