Romance in English

While I'm sure this title got some hopes up. It got my hopes up too. Especially since on Friday in English I talked to this super attractive male. Named...Connor? I think? And he said he liked my blazer. That made me feel good about my life. But, I don't see that going anywhere. But he is super HOT! 
But really. I was doing my homework for English which was to read some poems and pick the one we related to the most then write a paper about it. Pretty stupid, yes. however. I thoroughly enjoyed two of the 5 poems. But since I picked one, I'm going to share that with you. As majestic as that is. Here we go.

Home Away From Here

By: Jeremy Bolm

I'm coming to terms that I'm not concerned

With planting my feet but moving onward

I'm growing older but I can't get over

The need of colder skin when I know that home is warmer

It's just that I have this problem

Where I want to be everywhere I'm not

But I'm thankful for what I've got

A room in a house where my bed may stay

But the feel of another's sheets help keep my demons away

It's become clear that what keeps me here

Is that sense of failure and other nightmares

I've become jaded and I can't escape it

The thought of settling when I know it's what I hated

It's just I have this problem

Where I want to be everywhere I'm not

It's just I know myself and I'll sacrifice everything I've got

Though I can't afford to eat as much as I would like to be

And my bills won't pay themselves so I'll come up with another scheme

This place looks better from a passenger window

Or when stared at from up above

But when you're chasing brightness

You'll lose concern with the damage done

It's not my fault

I'll try to call

No ties no roots I'm fine.

Romantic, I know. So this is the first time I'll be doing this and my sister is going to give me crap for it. I know. Probably Jenna too. But oh well. Guys. I have feelings too. :)

What I'm getting at is that I miss my family. 

My terrors of little brothers that got big and somehow I just realized this.

Drew is in 9th grade at Churchill and on the Brighton Golf team. He is just the funniest kid and I think I missed him the most to start out with. Me and him did not get along till about a year ago and then he got big and is taller than me- I did notice that one. I also noticed it when he would punch me and it hurt for once. He is now my "Big-Little Brother" He is the funniest kid and I'm a little upset that I won't be around much while he's in high school. He's so great. I'm glad he has a phone so we can text. I'd catch a grenade for him.

Jack is the middle and he is silent but violent. He's the tintes mcginites one. But he is just like me. He has a lot of emotions and sometimes they explode- good or bad- but when it's good-It's the funniest thing in the world. He is so cute with his bright blue eyes-just like dads- and his freckles. Just the cutest. He'll be a lady slayer for sure. He loves his little (more like huge!) Aquarium with the weirdest "goldfish" I've ever seen. But he loves it and was so excited to show me his new, bigger tank when we skyped on Sunday. He loves to love things. He is really such a sweetheart.

Spence-A-Wence is the baby. And he is going to make sure he milks that till he moves out. But man does it work for him.However, He is a big kid! He and Jack are the same size and they are almost 3 years apart. He plays football for Brighton's Little league and is the back up Quarter-back and plays corner-back? I'm not sure what that means but he tackles like a mad man! He is a cute kid. Sometimes it bugs me that he always gets his way but it's just because I'm jealous he's the youngest and I miss being a little kid with endless energy and spunk. He is a lot of fun to have around for sure though. He is always the one to give hugs and cuddle with you.

Then of course my parents. I miss being daddy's little girl. I miss him coming home from work and sitting in the Seahawks chair with his Diet Coke and seeds. I miss him going for Diet Coke runs at midnight and still getting the biggest one he could. I miss his iPhone games and endless cords for every kind of gadget and gizmo that Apple has to offer. I miss his good advice and the love he has for our whole family and he makes sure we know that. He is the hardest worker and still comes home in a good mood.  I love my daddy and his funny jokes. Waka Waka. 

And Mom. This will be a lot for all those who know me but I miss her. I always knew she did a lot for me and everyone told me "One day you'll miss your mom doing this or that... etc etc etc" And I knew I would. The day before I moved out my dad asked me to remember all the things I missed that my mom would do for me.

I've noticed it a LOT! Every time I go to the grocery store because I need milk or cheese or taco meat. When I got sick and had to go get myself medicine and gatorade, when I come home every night and am exhausted and have to make myself some dinner. I miss Sunday dinners the most. Those were always the best. I miss the constant crafterizing going on in the house and the constant paint and paintbrushes everywhere. She's Crafty! I love my mom and am so grateful for her. She has done so much for me and I truly appreciate that. I know it didn't seem like it before and I was ready to get out but I really do appreciate all of it. Every little thing. Even though we don't always agree or see each others side, I still love her and will always be grateful for her and everything shes done, as my mom. I love you mom! 

So anyways, That's me being tender and actually really missing my family and seeing that college isn't really the dream life. Although it definitely has it's perks. So does having a family and a constant chaos at home to look forward to. The weirdest thing for me was coming home to a silent house. No screaming. No fighting. No singing brothers. (Jackson) No Fred's toenails clicking on the hardwood floor. It is weird. I love college and I love everything going on but I miss my family for sure. 

So this is me sending my love to all of them back at the SLC. The 801. I love you! I miss you!