Today I really tried to dwell on the good things about this because lately it has been really easy to forget how amazing this experience is.
I cried and begged and gossiped and worried about him not going for months, years! And now he is there, a real missionary, Elder Free, and he is loving it.
I'm not going to lie, I always kind of assumed he was going to hate it at first. Not because he would be a "bad missionary" but because he hates being told what to do, it's a huge adjustment, it's all church-all day, he's away from his friends, he's such a momma's boy, and he decided to go so fast- I just never really thought he really knew what he was getting himself into. I don't even know what he's gotten into!
But today, I really just thought about how much of a blessing it is that he is happy, at least he was when I got his letter (We won't talk about how I didn't get an email back today. Monday=Pday. And yet, nothing) But how it sounded like it only took him a day to feel comfortable with being a missionary. How he already has a love for the work and the people. How he is having amazing experiences. And how his first letter was primarily about Christ and his love for us with a challenge to try and feel that love for people around me.
That's right.
It was really amazing to see that side of him and to see him enjoying it and really getting the most out of this.
He really is going to be a great missionary and we aren't even a full week into this. (I know you guys just got really excited because you realized you still have 103 weeks of blog posts like this. Yay!)
So today, while I was thinking about how happy he is, I decided it's my turn.
He is out there, finding things that make him happy and growing up, maturing, creating life.
So I need to do the same.
Before, we were each others happy. We knew what he had to do if one of us had a bad day or just needed a friend. We kept each other enjoying life and staying happy.
Now we don't get that. So I'm making it my responsibility to find what makes me happy, besides him. That is what he gets to do for 2 whole years. So instead of just moping around, I'm going to enjoy myself.
It's summer. I'm 19. Newly single (kind of...) and have a full life ahead of me so I'm going to make sure it's a good one.
I'm going to do things that I enjoy, even if that means staying in my pajamas all day and watching my favorite shows. (Kardashians, Gossip Girl season 5 anyone?)
I'm going to have my adventures so that I will have something to tell him about when he is back instead of just him.
If we are going to change, we may as well do it together.
So here we go. I'm sure there will be some bad days and you will hear all about them. But I'm going to make an effort to enjoy this.
I'll make new friends, try new things, make new memories, go on adventures (study abroad anyone?!) and be happy!
So here's to staying positive!
Haley I am so happy for you. I really hope I can learn to do the same thing. We can go on study abroad together and do amazing things!!!
ReplyDeleteYes! You will be fine. The beginning is hard but after that it is so much easier. You'll be good, girl. And I'll be here to hang out with you all day. No Joke! Call me anytime. I don't know your work schedules and stuff so whenever. We can hang out. :) Study abroad will happen! Don't even worry about that. :) Also, I learned you can just sign up through a college, you don't have to go to that college. :)
ReplyDeleteHaley... please realize that I freaking adore you :) and I miss you :) and I want to hang out the second we're both in Logan again :) and I love you :) and I am glad you are being happy :) and I am using smileys instead of periods :) and Mike is going to be the greatest missionary of all time :) and he is going to miss you :) and he is having the time of his life :) and you should too :) and that is not all... but I'll be done :) thanks love ya bye :)
ReplyDeleteHaha Britt! I love you! It's so good to hear from you. I miss you and I'm like super jealous of your awesome life in Tennessee. He and Jaron can be the best ever. P.s. He's been gone 8 months?! What?! That is amazing. Mike really is having the time of his life. So I'm ready for that. So possibly taking you up on your offer to join you in Tennessee next summer. It sounds too amazing. k love you bye. :)
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